Lost (def): not knowing where you are or how to get to where you want to go : unable to find your way.

 Greetings Reader if you are out there. I can't believe I'm blogging but then again, I can't believe a lot of things about my life. I am the living definition of LOST (courtesy of Merriam-Webster) and I figured I might as well invite anyone else that feels this way (or not) to join me on this bizarre journey. So, hi.

I'm still undecided as to how confessional I want this to be, so I'll just play it by ear. While I think sharing my woes could be helpful (if not entertaining), I tend to be a private person. Either way, my goal in writing this is to voice my inner turmoil with cathartic hope. And if that opens the door to healing for you, then count me blessed.

Another huge obstacle I am conquering is pride. Unabashedly spilling my life story is a lesson in humility for me. I would much rather everyone on Facebook think my life is perfect. But alas, it is FAR from it. So, why pretend? It's exhausting! Besides, deep down we ALL know that no one's life is perfect. So I will raise my hand, stand in front of the class, and with a red face and shaky hands, share my assignment with you.

Here goes. I am lost. Not "I just graduated from college lost" or "I'm not sure I want to stay in this (fill in the blank) lost". I am straight-up, not exaggerating, beyond comprehension L.O.S.T. Here is the rundown: I am almost 33, I am unemployed, single, I live with my mom, I'm struggling with my faith, and I have NO clue what I want to do with my life- let alone tomorrow. I spent the first 22 years of my life following a pretty simple plan: wake up, go to school, keep my nose clean. I followed that plan to a T. Then come June 2000-something of my 22nd year, the plan ended. I had a BA in Sociology which is like having a degree in Curling (the sport, not the hairstyle) and no clue what was next. So, like most college grads, I worked minimum wage jobs that had no relation to my educational degree and just enjoyed my young 20's because I could! At that age, the future is still this far-off fantasy thing that will come 'one day.' Well, that day has arrived and it looks NOTHING like I though it would! 

To be continued...

Thank you for reading :)